Showing posts with label Derek Richards. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Derek Richards. Show all posts

April 5, 2010

Full of It

by Derek Richards

Father would make promises; Sunday morning bowling.
An afternoon fishing Parkhurst River.
Tiptoeing into my parents bedroom, up close
to the fancy-black bottle on the nightstand.
Empty. I had once asked Mother why he drank
so much. Because he works.
She had been wrist-deep in a soup of dish-soap
and soaked grease. She could spend an hour on a single dirty pan.
My friends, Chesepeake Johnson
and Olly Mathers had fathers that drank too.
Because they don't work.
I was born in 1984. The year the Rubber Factory
closed, and many fathers lost their jobs.
Also the year Mother divorced her first husband,
Dewey Fuller, the town's Mayor.
Mathematics came to me at an early age. Father
always insisted he couldn't add two and two
for any good reason.
The older I got, the more instinctively I felt
my Father was sinking. Mother would always deny
anything was wrong, despite never placing the
clean dishes away without breaking one.
And so it had been another Sunday morning,
watching a man named Daddy snore the day away.
Often Mother would snore right in-sync.
Failed promises, mathematic mysteries.
Always trying to subtract a fancy-black bottle
from the empty spaces between sleep.

January 1, 2010

the gutter bible ....chapter three: a song for charlotte....

by Derek Richards

we think we can't cry anymore
too toughened by sleeping on concrete
eating out of dumpsters
addicted and desperate and so often denied
but we can
i'm at a funeral and there are five people
including our ancient Father Michaels
we go in peace
amen


globe and i have known charlotte
for two years now
tiny girl with fourteen piercings
and a severely crooked nose
broken six times by her ex-husband
three by her last boyfriend
who we took care of with some cheap hairspray
and a handful of lighters
charlotte staggered into saint josephs park
like a damaged cat
too tired to lick its wounds
after awhile we talked and she cried
and that was it
our little gang was now three

we hit a bad streak seven days ago
48 hours dry and sweating poison
tosses and turns
nightmares, delusions and reality
charlotte had some old connections
down near the sabel river projects
fifty bucks for a quick fuck
and a handshake

two days later we got nervous
scraped up fifty cents and bought
a copy of The Herald
she was fifth on a cold black white list
of seventeen deaths
through the hungry gossip of the streets
we learned her fate
i will not repeat it
because we can
cry

we are at a funeral of five people
we are again a gang of two
when we are hooked up and in the sun
i hum songs to myself
sometimes i even scribble them down
we got hooked up
we are in the cemetery sun
i think i've got a song

housing project reunion

by Derek Richards

when we die
i don't care
honestly
i'm not them
i show in black
grimace
hands through my hair
but fuck them
the dead
i'm still high
still smoking cigarettes
still cool
they smell
wear lipstick
dumb blue suits
hairspray
her young blonde thighs
contemplating
physics
guitar strings to buy
and the dead
are useless
young or old
god or needle
simply dead
no more
singing

October 23, 2009

dialogue of faith and highway

by Derek Richards

thumbs are broken
hitch-hiking blind the night it rained
boulders on a hazy highway
south of the city

intimate conversations
with a bottle of Nightrain
and a gypsy moth
lost for a hiccup of thought
or a heavy quilt
of spiritual progress

someday i'm going to find a front door
fitting the key in my pocket
the girl of my dreams
no growling dogs
no angry fence
let's turn up the heat, honey,
it's so cold out there
brown eyes
sincerity

\back is broken
carrying dense fragments of fallen universe
up and down senseless hills
waiting for the sunrise
praying away cages
dancing along the yellow line with a limp
and an aggravated faith

someday i'm going to breathe softly
read a book before bed
light a room of passive candles
quit smoking
eat a meal on clean dishes and wash
the filthy vodka down the sink
let's go to bed, honey,
we've both got to work tomorrow
simple lips
promises

there's a truck slowing down up ahead
feels like rain
my throat is an ache of cheap wine
and buried apologies
i'm going home
someday
the truck stops and an old man waves
me inside where you going, son?

crash

by Derek Richards

there you are
fractured
polished nails
spinning
in strips
electric doors stutter the howling
i turn the cell to vibrate
imagine
cigarettes

the atlantic suddenly smells of smoldering steel
summer trees bent for the camera
poets and police notes
suspecting booze
blood and rosaries smear the dashboard
the radio still works

they fed you morphine, my dear
confirming the day fatal
regardless of medical charts and vital signs
you sway broken
legs spread like a romance novel
when you read my card
i watched your eyes
staring
at the drip

an alignmenet of rubber stained tourists
detail photos of the crime scene
red high-heels and wine bottles
tic-tacs and marlboros
they say you broke both collarbones
snapped your spine
and you will lose your left foot
they fed you morphine, my dear

i stand outside
smoking
guessing the name of each pretty nurse
bouncing through the doors
i can hear the siren of wasted tires
anticipate the impact


*originally published in Breadcrumb Scabs